one year

the pain is still so fresh that it feels like nothing has changed in the last year. i am still trying to figure out exactly how to function. i really don't have a lot to say, i just feel that i needed/wanted to be heard (read).

it is far too unbelievable for words. we are all aware of the upcoming days and what they mean.

please think about ellen. i do.

thank you

i have nothing else for the moment but, from the depths of my heart, thank you all.

NEW UPDATE

we wanted to shoot a quick message out to let everyone know that we are now not going to chicago but philadelphia. i got a call late today and was told that facility can help and treat me so off we go still just a different direction.

please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. we are still suppose to be leaving tomorrow but due to the change in location i have been warned it could be a day or so longer. I have been alright with that so far since i know they will try to help but i think tomorrow morning at 10 when they call me i will know for sure how i feel if they tell me it's on wed. like it is supposed to be.

love,
ellen

new chapter

first we apologize for such a long delay of not respondning on the blog. we have been trying to get things in order since i returned from duke last thursday. i still am weak but do not have to use the wheelchair or walker that we rented. i did getting off the plane last week, which i can not thank enough to revoldts as i was able to fly home on a private plane. i do not think i would have been able to make it commerical or in the car until now. i am working hard on gaining weight back and hate to look in the mirror still so hence i'm not very clean as i avoid showers:)

our lastest plan is we... are going to chicago on tuesday. technically, zion, illinois, is about 30 miles outside of chicago and is home to the midwest branch of the cancer treatment centers of america.

www.cancercenter.com

the cancer treatment centers of america focus on all aspects of a persons battle with cancer. they feature an integrative approach that includes chemotherapy and radiation treatments, surgery, nutritional therapy, naturopathic medicine and spiritual support among others.

i really don't have too many details at this point. she will be evaluated on wednesday, when we get there. i know i will be staying there as well for either an inpatient or outpatient treatment. it's pretty cool. i am trying to remain positive as i did prior to our departure to duke.

we will continue to follow the blog now but the last week has been so very difficult-still is so we were quiet.

thank you for all the support and please please please keep the hope and prayers coming my way. i am really in need.

love, ellen

brief update

i went to pick up the report from dr. masters today. he gave me 20 pages on diet, health and lifestyle changes that ellen will have to make. he included foods that she should be eating and foods that she should NOT be eating. we have some work to do to build her up but she is ready for it.

we are still trying to figure out the visits. for the most part, ellen is still very weak and very tired so it is hard for her to stay up. stay tuned though, she is feeling better every day and it won't be long before she will be ready to see you all.

sorry for the delay

we arrived safely from north carolina but have been very tired, as you might imagine.

i know all of you have been eager to hear about our visit with dr. masters. it went well. he tested ellen with electrodes placed on different pressure points. after 10 minutes, he did the same thing and compared the results. ellen is showing a sever deficiency in her kidney and liver functions, her filter organs. she also has a problem with a particular pancreatic enzyme that he called the "eater-uppers". the cancer cells secrete a poison as they die off. this pancreatic enzyme is supposed to eat that poison as it appears. it's not doing so. these three things are what is stopping her body from healing.

he prescribed a supplement and a detoxifying liquid that she takes several times a day. his intention is to "build her up" before he attacks the cancer itself.

the way he explained what is going on in her body is so simple, so reasonable. it just made sense. he is fairly confident that he can help her. she is going to be changing her diet in addition to the supplements, so that will make a great deal of difference also.

we are still very encouraged about the new course of action. ellen is still very sick from the chemo but is fighting hard. she wants to feel better so that she can see everybody who has followed her battle so diligently.

please feel free to call us, 330.361.4141, and leave a message so that we may start to map out some visits. also, please don't be offended if i don't call back right away. she gets tired very easily and it will be hard to have many visitors for some time. we appreciate your patience but she IS eager to see everyone.

still coming home

i promised ellen that i would post every day, even if there isn't much to say. we are still coming home tomorrow. a friend of the family was kind enough to loan us his personal jet so we won't have to deal with baggage claim, security, etc. we will be in north canton around 11:30 tomorrow.

we can't thank everyone enough for the continued outpouring of support. in our darkest hours you shined a brilliant, white light on us. WE can see... thanks to all of YOU.

we will see you soon.